Gatsby! Could it be? No it can't. It can't be him. Jordan mentioned a name today that filled me to the brim with guilt today. "Gatsby" It can't be the one, the Gatsby that lit the fire in my heart so many years ago. The Gatsby who was suppose to be my soul mate, the only one who my heart so desires. It cannot be that Gatsby. And if it were, why, it would be to late. Wouldn't it? That love, with that Gatsby ended as quick as it began 5 years ago. Either way this man's name strikes my heart with a thousand lightning bolts, because this name "Gatsby" is the name I have tried 5 years to release from my aching heart. And now that it has escaped from another's lips I feel as though I may die from sadness. I shouldn't get my own hopes up, there is surely other Gatsbys around besides him. But the way that Gatsby made me feel, could never be described not even if I went on for 100 years. I would never tell anyone this but sometimes when I look at Tom all I ever want is for Jay Gatsby to be the one looking back at me. When I look at my child I can't help but wish it were Jay's. In the beginning, Tom satisfied my needs. The need to be loved, and the need to be looked at in the very same way that Gatsby looked at me, and couple a while I looked at him the same way. But Tom will never be Jay. I wish I could have done anything on earth with Gatsby and I never got to tell him..
So this is Daisy? The Daisy that is with Tom? Well, I expected more of you. You have a wonderful man, yet you decide to go for another? I'd take Tom any day of the week. If only you weren't catholic, then I'd have your husband all to myself. I heard you have a gorgeous little girl! Too bad Tom wasn't there for the delivery... Oh, that's right.. He was with me. What a fantastic night out that was! Not to mention the adorable puppy he bought me! Oh what a man. It's a shame to see him go to waste with a girl like you.
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